36 Penyakit Kritikal Prudential
What is the 36 Critical Illness covered
4.A CRITICAL ILLNESS – shall mean any one of the following illnesses as defined separately hereunder occurring more than sixty days after the Commencement Date of the Policy as specified in the Schedule or the date of any Revival of Benefits(s) or the date of any Endorsement of Benefit(s) secured under the Policy or the date of issue of this Annexure whichever is the lasts.
(1)HEART ATTACKThe death of the position of the heart muscle (myocardium) as a result of inadequate blood supply and being evidenced by:-i.A history of typical prolonged chest pain; and ii.New electrocardiographic changes resulting from this occurrence; and iii.Elevation of the cardiac enzyme (CPK-MB) above the generally accepted laboratory levels of normal.Diagnosis based on the elevation of Troponin T test alone shall not considered diagnostic of a heart attack.Angina is specifically excluded.
(2)NORONARY ARTERY DISEASE REQUIRING SURGERYRefers to the actual undergoing of coronary artery by-pass surgery by way of thoracotomy to correct or treat coronary artery disease but not including angioplasty, other intra-arterial, keyhole or laser procedures.
(3)STROKEDefined as a cerebrovascular accident or incident producing neurological sequelae of a permanent nature, having lasted not less than six (6) months. Infarction of brain tissue, haemorrhage and embolisation from an extra-cranial source are included. The diagnosis must be based on changes seen in CT scan or MRI and certified by neurologist.Specifically excluded are cerebral symptoms due to transient ischaemic attacks, any reversible ischaemic neurological deficit, vertebrobasilar ischaemia, cerebral symptoms due to migraine, cerebral injury resulting from trauma by hypoxia and vascular disease affecting the eye or optic nerve or vestibular functions.
(4)CANCERCancer is defined as the uncontrollable growth and spread of malignant cells and the invasion and destruction of normal issue for which major interventionist treatment or surgery (excluding endoscopic procedures alone) is considered necessary. The cancer must be confirmed by histological evidence of malignancy.The following conditions are excluded:-i.Carcinoma in situ including of cervix.ii.Ductal carcinoma in situ of breast.iii.Papillary carcinoma of the bladder and Stage 1 Prostate Cancer.iv.Stage 1 Hodgkin’s disease.v.Tumours manifesting as complications of AIDS.
(5)KINDNEY FAILUREEach stage kidney failure presenting as chronic irreversible failure of both kidneys to function, as a results of which regular renal is initiated or renal transplantation is carried out.
(6)PARALYSISThe complete and permanent loss of use of both legs, or one arm and one leg, through paralysis caused by illness or injury persisting for at least six(6) months from the date of trauma or illness.
(7)MAJOR ORGAN TRANSPLANTATIONThe actual undergoing of a transplant as a recipient of one of the following human organs:i.Kidney. ii.Lung(s).iii.Liver.iv.Heart.v.Bone marrow.
(8)MULTIPLE SCLEROSISUnequivocal diagnosis by a consultant neurologist confirming the following combination, which has persisted for at least a continuous period of six (6) months:i.Symptoms referable to tracts (white matter) involving the optic nerves, brain stem and spinal cord, producing well-defined neurological deficits; andii.A multiplicity or discrete lesions; andiii.A well-documented history of exacerbation and remissions of the above said symptoms/neurological deficits.
(9)FULMINANT VIRAL HEPATITISThis is defined as a sub-massive necrosis of liver caused by any virus leading precipitously to liver failure.The diagnostic criteria to be met are:i.A rapidly decreasing liver size as confirmed by abdominal ultrasound; and ii.Necrosis involving entire lobules, leaving only a collapsed reticular framework; and iii.Rapidly deteriorating liver function tests; andiv.Deepening jaundice.Hepatitis B infection or carrier status alone does not meet the diagnostic criteria.
(10)PRIMARY PULMONARY ARTERIAL HYPERTENSION Means primary pulmonary hypertension with substantial right ventricular enlargement established by investigations including cardiac catheterization, resulting I permanent irreversible physical impairment to the degree of at least Class 3 of the New York Heart Association Classification of cardiac impairment, and resulting in the Life Assured being unable to perform his/her usual occupation.
(11)COMAA state of unconsciousness with no reaction or response to external stimuli or internal needs, persisting continuously for at least 96 hours, requiring the use of life support systems and resulting in a neurological deficit, lasting more than thirty (30) days. Confirmation by neurologist is required.Coma resulting directly from self-inflicted injury, alcohol or drug misuse is excluded.
(12)BLINDNESSThe total, permanent and irrecoverable loss of the sight of both eyes. Certification by an ophthalmologist is necessary.
(13)HEART VALVE REPLACEMENTThe actual undergoing of open-chest surgery to replace or repair cardiac valves as a consequence of heart valve defects or abnormalities that have occurred after the date of issue or date of revival of this contract.Repair via valvotomy, intra-arterial procedure, key-hole surgery or similar techniques are specifically excluded.
(14)SURGERY TO THE AORTAThe actual undergoing of surgery via a thoracotomy or laprotomy to repair or correct an aortic aneurysm, an obstruction of aorta or coarctation of the aorta. For the purpose of this definition, aorta shall mean the thoracic and abdominal aorta but not its branches.
(15)ALZHEIMER’S DISEASEDeterioration or loss of intellectual capacity or abnormal behavior as evidence by the clinical state and accepted standardized questionnaires or tests arising from Alzheimer’s Disease or irreversible organic degenerative brain disorders excluding neurosis, psychiatric illness, and any drug or alcohol related organic disorder, resulting in significant reduction in mental and social functioning requiring the continuous supervision of the Life Assured. The diagnosis must be clinically confirmed by an appropriate medical consultant.
(16)DEAFNESSTotal, permanent and irreversible loss of hearing in both ears as a result of disease or accident. Medical evidence in the form of an audiometry and sound-threshold tests must be provided.
(17)LOSS OF SPEECHTotal and irrecoverable loss of ability to speak for a continuous period of twelve (12) months. Medical evidence to confirm injury or illness to the vocal cords to support this disability must be supplied by an appropriate (Ear, Nose, Throat) specialist.All psychiatric related causes are excluded.
(18)MAJOR BURNS Third degree burns covering at least twenty percent (20%) of the Life Assured’s body surface area as measured by “The Rule of 9” of the Lund and Browder Body Surface Chat.
(19)TERMINAL ILLNESS The Life Assured being must be suffering from a condition, which in the opinion of an appropriate medical consultant is highly to lead to death within twelve (12) months. The Life Assured must no longer be receiving active treatment other than that for pain relief.
(20)AIDS DUE TO BLOOD TRANSFUSION The Life Assured being infected by HIV virus or AIDS provided that:i.The inflection is due to blood transfusion received in Malaysia or Singapore after the commencement of the policy;ii.The Life Assured is not a haemophiliac; andiii.The Life Assured is not a member of any high risk groups such as but not limited to homosexuals, intravenous drug users or sex workers.Notification and proof of incident will be required via a statement from a statutory Health Authority that the inflection is medically acquired.
(21)MOTOR NEURONE DISEASE Motor neurone disease of unknown aetiology is characterized by progressive degeneration of corticospinal tracts and anterior horn cells or bulbar efferent neurons. These include spinal muscular atrophy, progressive bulbar palsy, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis and primary lateral sclerosis.Diagnosis must be confirmed by a consultant neurologist.
(22)PARKINSON’S DISEASE Unequivocal diagnosis of Parkinson’s Disease by a consulting neurologist where the conditions:-i.TransferGetting in and out of a chair without requiring physical assistance.ii.MobilityThe ability to move from room to room without requiring any physical assistance.iii.ContinenceThe ability to voluntarily control bowel and bladder functions such as to maintain personal hygiene.iv.DressingPutting on and taking off all necessary clothing without requiring of another person.v.Bathing/washingThe ability to wash in the bath or shower (including getting in or out of the bath or shower) or wash by any other means. vi.EatingAll tasks of getting food into body once it has been prepared.Only idiopathic Parkinson’s Disease is covered. Drug-induced or toxic causes of Parkinsonism are excluded.
(23)CHRONIC LIVER DISEASEEnd stage liver failure evidence by all of the following:-i.Permanent jaundice.ii.Ascites.iii.Encephalopathy.iv.Portal hypertension.Wernicke’s encephalopathy and liver failure secondary to alcohol or drug misuse are excluded.
(24) CHORONIC LUNG DISEASEEnd stage respiratory failure including chronic interstitial lung disease.All of the following criteria must be met:-i.Requiring permanent oxygen therapy as a result of a consistent FEVI test value of less than one lite.(Forced Expiratory Volume during the first second of a forced exhalation)ii.Arterial Blood Gas analysis with partial oxygen pressures of 55 mmHg or less.iii.Dyspnoea at rest.
(25)APLASTIC ANAEMIAChronic persistent bone marrow failure which results in total aplasia of the bone marrow and requires treatment with at least one of the following:-i.Regular blood product transfusion.ii.Marrow stimulating agents.iii.Immunosuppressive agents.iv.Bone marrow transplantation.
(26)MUSCULAR DYSTROPHYThe diagnosis of muscular dystrophy shall require a confirmation by consultant neurologist of the combination of 3 out of 4 of the following conditions:i.Family history of other affected individuals.ii.Clinical presentation including absence of sensory disturbance, normal cerebro-spinal fluid and mild tendon reflex reduction.iii.Characteristic electromyogram.iv.Clinical suspicion confirmed by muscle biopsy.Children age twelve(12) years and below are exclude from the definition.
(27)POLIOMYELITISUnequivocal diagnosis by a consultant neurologist of infection with the Poliovirus leading to paralytic disease as evidence by impaired motor function or respiratory weakness. Cases not involving paralysis will not be eligible for this benefit. Other causes of paralysis (such as Guillain–Barre syndrome) are specifically excluded.
(28)BACTERIAL MENINGITISBacterial meningitis causing inflammation of the membranes of the brain or spinal cord resulting in permanent neurological deficit lasting for a minimum period of thirty (30) days and resulting in a permanent inability to perform at least three (3) of the Activities of Daily Living either with or without the use of mechanical equipment, special devices or other aids and adaptations in use for disabled person. For the purpose of this benefits, the word “permanent”, shall mean beyond the hope of recovery with current medical knowledge and technology.The Activities od Daily Living are:-i.TransferGetting in and out of a chair without requiring physical assistance.ii.MobilityThe ability to move from room to room without requiring any physical assistance.iii.Continence The ability to voluntarily control bowel and bladder functions such as to maintain personal hygiene.iv.DressingPutting on and taking off all necessary items of clothing without requiring assistance of another person.v.Bathing/WashingThe ability to wash in the bath or shower (including getting in or out of the bath or shower) or wash by any other means.vi.EatingAll task of getting food into the body once it has been prepared.The diagnosis is to be confirmed by a consultant neurologist.
(29)BENIGN BRAIN TUMOURA life-threatening, non-cancerous tumour in the brain giving rise to characteristic signs of increased intra-cranial pressure such as papilloedema, mental symptoms, seizures and sensory impairment. The presence of the underlying tumour must be confirmed by imaging studies such as CT scan or MRI.The following are excluded:i.Cysts.ii.Granulomas.iii.Malformations in or of the arteries of veins of the brain.iv.Haematomas.v.Tumours in the pituitary gland, or spine.vi.Tumour of the acoustic nerve.
(30)ENCEPHALITISDefined as severe inflammation of brain substance, resulting in permanent neurological deficit lasting for a minimum period of thirty (30) days and certified by a consultant neurologist. The permanent deficit must in an inability to perform at least three (3) of Activities of Daily Living either with or without the use of mechanical equipment, special devices or other aids and adaptations in use for disabled persons. For the purpose of this benefits, the word “permanent”, shall mean beyond the hope of recovery with current medical knowledge and technology.The Activities of Daily Living are:-i.TransferGetting in and out of a chair without requiring physical assistance.ii.MobilityThe ability to move from room to room without requiring any physical assistance.iii.ContinenceThe ability to voluntarily control bowel and bladder function such as to maintain personal hygiene.iv.DressingPutting on and taking off all necessary items of clothing without requiring assistance of another person.v.Bathing/WashingThe ability to wash in the bath or shower (including getting in or out of the bath or shower) or wash by any other means.vi.Eating All tasks of getting food into the body once it has been prepared.Encephalitis as a result of HIV infection is included.
(31)FULL BLOWN AIDSThe clinical manisfestation of AIDS (Acquired Immuno-deficiency Syndrome) must be supported by the result of a positive HIV (Human Immuno-deficiency Virus) antibody test and a confirmatory Western Blot test. In addition, the life Assured must have a CD4 cell count of less than two hundred (200) and one or more of the following criteria are met:-i.Weight loss of more than 10% of body weight over a period of six (6) months or less (wasting syndrome);ii.Kaposi Sarcoma;iii.Pneumocystic Carinii Rneumonia;iv.Progressive multifocal leukoeneephalopathy;v.Active Tuberculosis;vi.Less than one-thousand (1000) lymphocytes.vii.Malignant Lymphoma.In the event of a claim except for PRUpayor basic, PRUspouse payor basic and PRUparent payor basic, PRUpayor PSA, PRUspouse payor PSA, PRUparentpayor PSA, PRUwaiver, PRUspouse waiver, PRU parent waiver, 50% of all applicable Benefits (up to a maximum of RM500,000 on any one life under this and all other policies) payable in respect of this illness will be paid. The balance amount shall be payable on death, total and permanent disability or the diagnosis of another Critical illness whichever shall first occur.
(32)OTHER SERIOUS CORONARY ARTERY DISEASEThe narrowing of the lumen of at least three major arteries i.e. Circumflex, Right Coronary Artery (RCA), Left Anterior Descending Artery (LAD), by a minimum of 60% or more as proven by coronary arteriography. This benefits is payable regardless of whether or not any form of coronary artery surgery has been performed.
(33)BRAIN SURGERYThe actual undergoing of surgery to the brain under general anesthesia during which a craniotomy is performed. Bur Hole and brain surgery as a result of an accident is excluded.
(34)APALLIC SYNDROMEUniversal necrosis of the brain cortex, with the brainstem remaining intact. Diagnosis must be confirmed by a consultant neurologist and condition must be documented for at least one (1) month.
(35)MAJOR HEAD TRAUMAPhysical head injury causing significant permanent functional impairment lasting for a minimum period of three (3) month from the date of the trauma of injury. The resultant permanent functional impairment is to be verified by a consultant neurologist and duly concurred by the Activities of Daily Living either with or with or without the use of mechanical equipment, special devices or other aids and adaptations in use for disabled persons. For the purpose of this benefits, the word “permanent”, shall mean beyond the hope of recovery with current medical knowledge and technology.The Activities of Daily Living are:-i.TransferGetting in and out of a chair without requiring physical assistance.ii.MobilityThe ability to move from room to room without requiring any physical assistance.iii.ContinenceThe ability to voluntarily control bowel and bladder function such as to maintain personal hygiene.iv.DressingPutting on and taking off all necessary items of clothing without requiring assistance of another person.v.Bathing/WashingThe ability to wash in the bath or shower (including getting in or out of the bath or shower) or wash by any other means.vi.EatingAll tasks of getting food into the body once it has been prepared.
(36)LOSS OF LIMBSThe complete and irreversible physical severance of both arms above the wrists, or both legs above the ankles, or one arm above the wrist and one leg above the ankle due to injury.
Happy birthday Mr Armseeker!!!!!
Selamat ulangtahun kelahiran encik suami tersayang...... Semoga panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki dan kesihatan yang baik. Moga ikatan kita kekal hingga ke akhir hayat dan semoga kita berdua panjang umur bersama, dan aman damai sentiasa.
Terima kasih kerana hadir dalam hidup saya waktu saya sangat-sangat nemerlukan. Terima lasih kerana bersabar dengan segala kerenah saya, dan terima kasih kerana sentiasa menyokong segala usaha saya. Terima kasih kerana menjadi ayah yang terhebat untuk Raniah Zawanah.
Semoga dengan pertambahan umur hari ni, memberi pertambahan rezeki untuk ayang dan kita sekeluarga. Mama dan Raniah sayang abah sangat-sangat. <3 <3
Jadual Waktu STPM Baharu Penggal 2 tahun 2013
JADUAL WAKTU
PEPERIKSAAN SIJIL TINGGI PERSEKOLAHAN MALAYSIA
PENGGAL 2 TAHUN 2013
Pin Pin car nak lalu
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| Hehe dapat Helmet kanak-kanak untuk raniah |
Raniah bergaya dengan helmet budak yang dibeli dari kedai area ole2 sek 18. Asalnya nak dijadikan helmet utk bawa raniah naik motor kalo masuk jaln besar. Tapi dia xnak pakai bila atas motor, yang ni dia pakai pun sebab sonok 1st time tengok, skang dah simpan berabuk sudah. Helmet ni boleh dikira sebagai mainan atau perhiasan sahaja yer xder cop sirim ni.
Raniah skang naik moto freehair sahaja, merempit dengan abah di kala senja. :)
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| ni adalah signal peace! by raniah |
What to buy in Hong Kong
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| Mickey n Minnie from HK Disneyland |
My Daughter love the the Dolls so much we ended buying one mickey at HK Disneyland and one Minnie at the airport (cheaper than HKD i think)
Ladies Market is a fun place to see stuff and bargain for items. the shops are selling similar product and item. Haggling is the best part of Ladies market. Some may just ignore your haggling offer which means the price already at lowest or they dont speak your language. They understand simple english and learning their language might be a plus when haggling.
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| My Gundam RX-178 wrapped too tightly |
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| the content ;) |
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| various t-shirt from ladies market, shoulda bought more |
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| From ladies market |
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| souvenir from Ngong Ping, really well worth going too |
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| Ladies market also |
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| My wife said perfume are cheap here, i honestly cant seem to care kekeke |
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| From HK disneyland for niece and nephews |
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| Ladies Market again |
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| This is at the harbour mall HK, really cheap here, wife wants to buy everything LEGO |
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| ehem replica's for family ;P |
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| From JBO hobby shop, cannot bargain already cheap. bad cust service summore. wth its cheap! |
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| Coach are cheap at the Citygate Outlet near to Ngong Ping |
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| Citygate outlet stuff are cheap, this is a steal too |
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| one for wife, one for mother in law |
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| Ladies Market, bargain to 3/4 price they offer and you leave smiling |
Pengalaman menjaga anak dara sensorang
Kadang kala kita yang ibu bapa ni risau terlebih. kita bayangkan yang bukan-bukan dan risau berlebihan bila ada kaitan dengan anak kita. Dijadikan cerita Mama kena outstation dan sebelum nak pergi tu memang risau la nak tinggalkan raniah dengan abah berdua.
Benda pertama kena risau adalah raniah menyusu badan dan 'melekat' dengan maknya dari tidur sampai la celik. macam mana plak abahnye nak ganti nyusu badan kan? satu lagi adalah dia tak minum lansung susu formula atau susu kotak dutchlady tu or susu soya. dia tak minum dalam botol susu. nak letak air kosong pun dia takkan minum dalam botol. Rasa cam mustahil kan?
Tetapi masalah ini selesai dengan automaticnye apabila dia bukanlah perlukan susu untuk tidur tetapi dia perlukan insentif untuk tidur. Maksudnya bila dia dah penat dia akan tidur sendiri di atas bahu abahnya.
ada checklist yang aku set sendiri dalam kepala otak aku ni untuk pastikan dia tidur.
dah makan n minum?
dah penat?
selesa pakaian tidurnya?
dah tukar pampers?
mata dah layu? (step last)
Kalo dah lengkap semua tu bolehlah kita mula tidorkan dia. cara tidorkan dia biasanya letak atas bahu, lentokkan kepala dia ke bahu dan bagi dia tengok channel disneyjunir or babytv dengan vol hampir mute. Sambil tu dodoila dia dengan rocking badan depan belakang. Tapi nak letak dia atas katil kalo tak kena caranya dia akan bangun balik. so fuhhhhh tensen gak tringat brape kali x jadi nak letak bawah, kenalah dodoi balik. last2 aku baring trus sambil dia still atas badan, nasib baik dia baru 9kg lebey je. Kalo lucky dia boleh tertidur sesorang atas katil. atau kita boleh terbalikkan dia dan tepuk bontot sampai dia tido(ini jarang2 jalan)- dah tulis semua ni jeles plak dengan sape yang ajar anak tidur sendiri. jangan jadi cam kami! ajar anak tidur sendiri, dari baby lagi tau.
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| merajuk nak kuar @11.30 mlm pada malam pertama dgn abah |
Hari pertama memang susah, sebab tak paham dengan peel dia. pe'el dia adalah bila dia ajak keluar maksudnya dia nak tidor or nak makan. mungkin sebab dia dah biasa bila kita keluar dari pintu rumah dia akan dapat makanan dan boleh tidor dalam kereta. Satu tabiat yang susah nak buang. So kami pun bergumpal sampai pukul 3 pagi sebab dia asyik mintak keluar je, mata pun besor je lagi. Hari kedua alhamdulillah dia tidur pukul 12, trick paling senang adalah bawak dia ke McD seksyen 3 yang ada tempat main, bagi dia main lebey kurang sejam baru balik. balik umah sangatlah senang, sbb dia begging untuk kita tidokan sampai takder susu tu pun x menjadi isu.
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| main kat McD |
Aku sangat suka lepak berdua dengan Raniah, tidak menjadi masalah besar untuk uruskan dia, sangat suka berpeluk dengan dia bila tidur. i'll cherish these moment forever. patutla mama suka berkepit dengan dia. huh.
1st BE from Nuffnang
Setelah 'give up' untuk menarik hati Nuffnang dengan update bio dan update blog tetiber plak dapat Buffered Earning (BE) dari Nuffnang sejak dari 22 Mac 2013. last update kat blog ni pada 13.3.2013. last check nuffnang for BE pun 13 Mac tu sejak tu dah lupa lansung nak bukak nuffnang. rupanya bila kita dah lupe dia pulak datang. memang biasa macam tu la kan, bila kita nak tak sampai-sampai bila kita dah taknak dia pulak datang.
Baca dari blog lain mengatakan BE itu CPUV, Cost Per unique Visitor. yeke? ada gambar tunjuk Buffered earnng, tapi ini gambar lama la. Ini gambar masa 2011 dari blog lain. rasanya BE itu skang dipanggil CPUV tapi nama BE tu masih melekat dikalangan nuffnangers, bunyi cam vampires plak.
Ini plak gambar Nuffnang CPUV di blog armsrenee . Ini iklan ape ek Women March 2013?
lepas ni nak buat ape? ape lagi up traffic la kan....Walaupun tak generate apa-apa earning la ni, mari kita rev up balik usaha kiter. emmm..... tapi.... nak citer ape plak la ni....
1. citer pasal raniah development
2. citer insuran, haha terkedu saper baca ni. well ada orang yang cari jugak pasal insuran ni.
3. citer pasal study @ uitm
cam bosan je tajuk diatas... biarlah nak blog ikut sesuka hati jela.
thank you nuffnang dan sponsored ads, ini kira kontrak kerja la kan. you put trust in us to promote your product and we will deliver customer to you. cheers! gambate, Fightin!
Baca dari blog lain mengatakan BE itu CPUV, Cost Per unique Visitor. yeke? ada gambar tunjuk Buffered earnng, tapi ini gambar lama la. Ini gambar masa 2011 dari blog lain. rasanya BE itu skang dipanggil CPUV tapi nama BE tu masih melekat dikalangan nuffnangers, bunyi cam vampires plak.
Ini plak gambar Nuffnang CPUV di blog armsrenee . Ini iklan ape ek Women March 2013?
lepas ni nak buat ape? ape lagi up traffic la kan....Walaupun tak generate apa-apa earning la ni, mari kita rev up balik usaha kiter. emmm..... tapi.... nak citer ape plak la ni....
1. citer pasal raniah development
2. citer insuran, haha terkedu saper baca ni. well ada orang yang cari jugak pasal insuran ni.
3. citer pasal study @ uitm
cam bosan je tajuk diatas... biarlah nak blog ikut sesuka hati jela.
thank you nuffnang dan sponsored ads, ini kira kontrak kerja la kan. you put trust in us to promote your product and we will deliver customer to you. cheers! gambate, Fightin!
Lost and recover
April 2013........nearly 16 years a friend who was very dear to me gone....... To heaven. I've mourned for him....pining over his lost... as i'm the one found him. Still, i could feel the coldness of his body.....when i grab him under the log, in the waterfall..... And hell yes, i have a phobia whenever i was near a stream, waterfall and even sea. PARANOID, people would call me. Like i care.... Only me and me alone knew what it feels..... Having it haunting your dream for years, night after night...... Suffocating me and nearly kill my spirit in living.
Losing him, makes every relationship i had felt bitter. Still pining his lost, because for me he is so damn perfect. Everytime, whenever fight occured, i would be crying, hoping that he is there to heal my heart..... Comparing him with others, feeling empty though i'm commit to a relationship.
Unhealthy relationship, one after another, because, i know, my heart belongs to a person who already not in this world. I'm suffering in order finding 'perfection' in every relationship i have. Self loath...thinking that i'm not worth it to other person, as i'm betraying 'him'... For searching comfort with other man...... Every year, for several years....whenever the anniversary of his departure... I would mourning, locking myself in my room, praying for his peace..... Remembering every moments with him, hoping that he will visit in my dream, reliving our sweet memory together. Neither i care that my action would hurt other living person who loves me. But, dont blame me, coz usually, i would fall in love with jerks!
Losing him, makes every relationship i had felt bitter. Still pining his lost, because for me he is so damn perfect. Everytime, whenever fight occured, i would be crying, hoping that he is there to heal my heart..... Comparing him with others, feeling empty though i'm commit to a relationship.
Unhealthy relationship, one after another, because, i know, my heart belongs to a person who already not in this world. I'm suffering in order finding 'perfection' in every relationship i have. Self loath...thinking that i'm not worth it to other person, as i'm betraying 'him'... For searching comfort with other man...... Every year, for several years....whenever the anniversary of his departure... I would mourning, locking myself in my room, praying for his peace..... Remembering every moments with him, hoping that he will visit in my dream, reliving our sweet memory together. Neither i care that my action would hurt other living person who loves me. But, dont blame me, coz usually, i would fall in love with jerks!
Until....... I met him!
Him whom becomes my lover, him whom becomes my fiance, him whom becomes my husband, and now him, whom becomes the father of my lovely daughter.
Love at first sight, i think. I met him through our small university club, when he became one of my junior. For two semesters, i just watched him, not knowing how to make a move. Confident that he will not acknowledge my present in the club, or i think he just ignore me, as i am being the most hateful senior (@_@)..... As well i am taken at that time. Just looking at him, makes me remember 'him' who left me, and his presence itself makes me felt content. Until an activity makes us closer, and a movie date changes everything, makes my desire to him even more subtle. How could i let go this perfect men in order to complete the imperfect me..... And for the first time in my life, i havent think of the late him. I just think of him, who is in front of me.
2 years of our flirting and no string attached relationship, for the first time, the late him visited me in my dream.... Without any words, only smiles, he letting me go..... Showing that the choice i made was correct. I woke up, (with tears of course), realising that me, myself need to let 'him' go to rest in peace. That he believes that the man that i've had my relationship with is capable to take a very good care of me. A man who have taken a high responsibilities towards our relationship. Sesungguhnya, perancangan Allah itu maha indah.
Disember 2008, it is the end of all my nightmares. I gain my sleep, i gain my life and i gain my love. I felt complete, and starting from there, no mourning, no more locking myself in room, pining for dead people. His love distract me from everything... And i am grateful that he becomes my husband. I've recoveed for my lost, and god gives me the most wonderful gifts in my life. A perfect family for me.
Why am i suddenly wrote about this, pouring down all my emotions in this blog? Because a good friend of mine is having a similar experience with me, though it is not her lover, but her good friend. I do gave her advice.. Just let them go. I do have a quote from season 1 'ghost' aired in 8tv, stuck in my head, but cant seem to extract it out, the meaning of the quote was telling us for not pining and mourning for the person who left us, but accept it and move on. Cause if they still visit us, it makes them as well sad. When the friend told me that she can't accept it, it is like a wake up call for me that it already nearly 5 years that i haven't sent any prayers to 'him'....... Not even a slightest nostalgia about him came to me. What a disgrace me. But, i proof myself that i've move on, and my husband is the perfect man for me as he did not gave any chance for me to remember or anything.
Thank you mr armseeker for coming into my life, giving me all your love, and perfected the inperfect me. I'm blessed to have you and our lovely daughter.
First love never dies, but true love can bury it alive. - anonymous. (Well, it's true!!! :-D )
Jatuh cinta dengan Ko Joon Hee
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| Ko Joon Hee zero figure? |
Aku suka bimbo agaknya! haha.... she's not actually a bimbo tapi ada gaya ke arah itu sikit2, cantik dan tinggi bak model, dan a fashionista. An unknown for me yang x layan drama, tak sangka dia pernah berlakon dalam cerita popler Slave Hunters , Queen of Ambition dan The Chaser.
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| Ko Joon Hee runway look |
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| Ko Joon Hee first wink at Jinwoon |
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| Ko Joon Hee wink 1 2 3 |
Lagu baru Psy 'Gentleman'
Penyanyi yang popular dengan lagu Gangnam Style kini kembali dengan lagu barunya berjudul Gentleman. Lagu ini dilancarkan pada 12 April 2013 pada 12 malam
Lagu ini bermula dengan beat techno menarik dan kemudian disusuli rap Psy we like to party... I'm a.... I'm a.... I'm a..... Mother Father Gentleman. Jangan tanya saya apa maksudnya nantikan subnya nanti. Musik video Gentleman dijangka akan menyusul sebelum konsertnya besok, ia akan diarahkan oleh Jo Soo Hyun seorang pengarah MV hebat di Korea.
Psy akan mengadakan konsert di Korea pada 13 April 2013 dan ia dijangka disiarkan live seluruh dunia menerusi Youtube.
My Dream House
I want a good house,
a big house for raniah to play and run in, big enough room to hold an indoor slide in one room and her toys.
a room for "us" to enjoy with a seating sofa and small bookcase beside it, with walk in wardrobe and really big bathroom.
i like modern details but the one above is kind of sweet and clean with the view, the mini bookcase and sofa, also the tv is in there, a perfect component for my perfect bedroom.
a big house for raniah to play and run in, big enough room to hold an indoor slide in one room and her toys.
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| a space for her to play indoor |
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| with slide(s) |
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| its hard to find the perfect pic, but this is kinda perfect |
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| This is a cool bedroom too |
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| this is nice right? |
Up for a morning dive or before sleeping? this is perfect for those swimmers
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